StudentLoans

Should Not Incur Interest

by V. Martin

Nor should you have to pay back loans you never received. I made the mistake of trying to get an education past the GED I got when I was 15. The feds gave me a full grant to go to ASU, which I did but not very well. Up until that point my education was none existent. For some reason I don't remember ever being taught to read or write, that might be why I was so bad at it. After spending a summer reading out loud to my adopted mother I figured out how to get around my dyslexia without telling anyone about it. Mainly because I didn't know that is what I suffered from at the time nor did anyone else. Going from foster home to foster home didn't make it easy for any one to pay attention enough to realize I had a learning disorder, it was easier to believe that I'm stupid. To some extent, I am. Dyslexia makes it very easy to write me off as dizzy, empty headed, confused, dumb, not the sharpest pencil in the box, blonde, and an idiot. Yes, I get lost coming out of a one exit parking lot. That's only because I don't always know my left from my right or which way is up or down but mostly side to side. It's this state that really leads to people thinking I'm stupid. Also I'm ambidextrous which has only amplified my dyslexia.  For a time I was thinking it caused it. I was naturally left handed but forced to be right handed so I used them both and even more so now. 

Any way I took an IQ test when I was 11 and they told my adopted mother that I cheated on the test. She argued that I didn't know I would be taking the test in order to plan to cheat on it plus aren't IQ tests impossible to cheat on? What I think they are referring to is the fact I wouldn't try to cram the shapes into the wrong size shape because they would never fit. The reason why I knew they wouldn't fit is because on the way in another child was taking that same test, I could see him through the window and he couldn't get any of them to fit so I concluded they weren't the same size so why should I even try when they would never fit? If that's cheating you shouldn't have the window there for others to observe someone else taking the test. I don't miss much not even then.

So now can I have my real IQ test score from when I was 11? 

Off topic, as usual, I never got my degree, as a matter of fact I dropped out the same semester I received the student loan of $2,250. That is all I borrowed yet now I owe $13,089.00 for loans I never received. They even had me consolidate the ones I never got and show no payments ever being made. For over twenty five years I haven't received a federal tax return all of them going to this student loan. When I first left college I made at least six payments of $112.00 but no sign of them ever getting them. I have disputed these loans several times over the years with no luck. This fraud has ruined my life and kept me from ever owning a house or having a normal life. I have no family to stick up for me or hire a lawyer to help me get this worked out. With no job, because now they want to garnish my wages, this is money I never borrowed. I like to be a responsible human being and pay back my debts but these are not mine. I borrowed $2,250 that's it I struggled to pay it back let alone ones I never received. Some one is trying to get me to pay for their education maybe my lack of one led them to believe I would but there is something I lack more than intelligence, money. My ambition  left when I was stuck paying back money I never saw. My quest for higher learning only went as far as the grant did. Without parents I have no way to pay back money I never borrowed nor do I have any one to stand up for me when people treat me unfairly. 

Everytime I've tried to rise above my station in life, which is as a disposable person, I am met with hostility and resentment.  People buy my I don't need anybody least of all you act that I put on to keep people away. If they stay at a distance they may not notice my facade my act. With any luck they won't discover how horribly flawed I am and I do this by acting like I'm perfect. Which only makes it everyones priority to unseat me, rattle me, surprise me, catch me off guard which simply cannot happen. I do not drop my guard for a second, I can't, not even to sleep. At this point in my life I don't think I can even if I wanted to. It's like those poor Japanese woman with the bound feet, if they were to undo the binds they would probably die at this point, they've been bound for so long. My defenses are like that now, not necessary but without them I would die from exposer because they are all I have. If I let them go I would have even less and for sure every one would notice and come in for the kill being I am weak, sick, or just different. Not being able to trust anyone has made life pretty interesting.

So.b. & me 2015

By Vonia Martin

What can I say about an animal I’m so close to we read each other’s mind. From the beginning I thought he was special but I had never had a dog before so wasn’t sure but it true, he is a very special dog.  I have even asked other dog owners if So.b. was different and they reluctantly agree that he is. Most thought so much of him they wanted one of his puppies, which I intended on finding him a bitch to procreate with but never did. He had to be fixed, it is what was best as he moves into adulthood. So.b. is special because he doesn’t forget anything and will remind you if you do. 

Moose & So.B. Friends

Good morning world wide web!
You want to hear some thing funny?  Moose, the dog, would roll his eyes when he would see So.B., my dog, coming.  My dog would dance around Moose with a ball in his mouth barking with his mouth full.
Each time around Moose he would get a little closer until Moose was confident So.B. was close enough then he would pounce on So.B. pinning him down then taking the ball.  What he did with the ball no one knows but it would never be seen again.  Moose would go back to napping or so he would try.  So.B. wasn't discouraged as he had already found a nice stick to tease Moose with.  Again dancing around him barking with his mouth full then laying down to chew on the stick a while.  Moose casually walks over, bends down, and picks up the stick with So.B. still attached!  So.B. just dangled from this stick swinging in the air when Moose looked around the yard, as if looking for a place to bury the stick and So.B.  Finally Moose lays down again to chew on the stick a while.  Funny stuff!!! So.B.settles down chewing on the other end.

The face off, who do you think will win? It doesn’t look like much of a contest but you haven’t had a Jack Russel. These two have been pals since Moose could swallow So.B. whole.

Unfortunately, Moose is no longer with us. He was one of the best dogs ever and I miss him a lot but not as much as So.B.does.

The unlikely friendship of...

From the beginning we knew this relationship would take time.  Especially when we couldn't find the puppy anywhere until we looked at Moose who obviously had something in his giant mouth.  "Drop it!!"  "I said drop it" so he spits out the puppy all slimy and wet but happy as can be.  Moose looked guilty caught red handed but the puppy didn't care as he tried climbing the giant black Great Dane who finally bent his head down so the puppy could bite his ear.  What contrast, they couldn't be any more opposite then they are.  One huge and black the other white and barely 8 weeks old.  One a Great Dane known for their gentle slow nature, the other a Jack Russel known for their energy and relentlessess.

This is a more recent picture, unfortunately all the puppy ones are lost.  The Dane, Moose finally stops trying to eat the puppy so they became friends.

So.B. thinks he will be as big as Moose some day.